Even though I once said that assume we never happened before.. But.. The current me wish that the past is a good memory for both of us, not a lie. I try, tried to stop pouring anymore feelings towards you, even if you treat me coldly, but I failed to do so. There are times where I get to forget you, for a while, then after a while I started to miss you again.

I wanted to let go, knowing that I bothered you too much, annoyed you too much, but when I think of our past memories, it makes my feelings come back again. Even when something that is totally unrelated to you, also I am able to relate it to you, without thinking about it and getting sour for no reason even though I know that will (or might?) not happen.

How long has it been since the first day I had feelings towards you? How long has it been since that day you first grab my hand? I remember that incident clearly, that incident that changed my life drastically. I found myself to shed tears easily compared to before. Maybe I am the one that's being too sensitive and think too much? I know you hate it a lot.. I really miss the past, since that day that changed my life, until that day that everything ends, badly..

The lyrics are so meaningful.. I am sure a lot of the parents wish to say this to their children too..

Bruno Mars, just the way you are. For girls, change the female addressee to male addressee. XD! I am totally in love with this song and it suits my feelings so well!

Lyrics:

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying


She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day


Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see


But every time she asks me "Do I look okay?"
I say


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy


She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day


Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same


So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are


When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

I understand what were your feelings now, that feelings of yours that might not return again. That's okay, I will never give up no matter what you did nor what you said to me. I am sure that there will be a day where I am able to catch back your feelings. Yeah right, you know it well that it's hard to beat me down Xp! But for the time being, I will just let you do what you wanna do and respect your decision. Cos I know, and everyone knows that force doesn't brings any happiness. Though I might do anything that is out of my expectation xP! You know that feeling well!

And oh yesh! I am cute xDDDDDD! Mite mite! =^oo^= <-- Kawaii desuka??

How nice if everything goes as we wish.. But that would lead to no challenge right?? And if letting go was that easy, then no use to get in love too since you will forget about that moment you shared together with that special one of yours..

I wish to let go, I don't wish to let go, is too complicated.. I don't wanna let go because I really love you a lot, I wanna let go because I know I am bothering you too much. Letting it flow naturally? I wish that to happen too, but, it's so hard to control that feeling of wanna hold you or hug you because that really had gave me a wonderful memory. Sorry if I grabbed your hand or poked you suddenly, that's just means that I remember what we have done before and I am trying to get that back.

I promised secretly in my heart that I won't cry no matter what and become my old self again, the one that you once know a lot, the one that once make you fell for her. But, it's hard to stop the tears from flowing out when I think of I might/will never get back that feeling of yours again, and that precious and memorable moment of mine. I love you, deep from my heart.

~ =^oo^= ~

I have no idea since when, I have learnt the way of leaning my head on the wall, just with the reason of it gives me the feeling that you are by my side. Silliness had taken over as the wish of staying by your side had drowned the entire me.

Sometimes, I smiled secretly just looking at you, heart beating fast inside, but there are also times that I feel like shedding a tear. I wish, things never turned out to be like this cos I have the feeling that it might be a happy ending story. I have taken that coward way to avoid you, but it lasts for just a slip of eyes, bringing the definition of can't live without you anymore. *Yeah, that's one of the silliness I'm facing, the truth that neither one can deny*

That encouragement of paying attention in class came from you, with the aim of doesn't want you to worry about me *even though I know you won't =.=, that just lead to another silliness*. It used to be fun to go to lectures as there are always someone that I can hold, but, that no longer remains in reality, only dreams, and memories.

Too much that I wanted to say, but unable to get the initiative or chance. Even if I said let it flow naturally, there's no one clearer than me of how much I wish to have that second chance again. And how nice if there is a chance to cuddle you tightly, even if it's just a cuddle, I swear I will never let go this time!

Oh yeah!!! 爱的太迟～爱需要及时～ Somehow that is the song that keep flashing in my mind. Reason? Because the lyrics suit my current feeling a lot. Sigh.. If I realized earlier, if I get to choose again, will I still choose back the same answer?

很难告诉自己不要再想了，可是我真的办不了，就连你在我面前时也默默地在想着。可惜，当我对你开始有感觉时，回忆已成了回忆。那一切真的不会再回来了吗？还记得你那粗糙的手，曾经突然紧紧地握着我，还记得你那好奇又温暖的拥抱，给了我很多的安全感，还记得当初你向我说过的一句话，甚至还记得当初你所叫过我的一声宝贝，我拒绝了。。后悔我所拒绝的一切已成为了事实，不会再回来了。
我好想念你抓着我的手，一起取暖的那段时刻，我也好想念你抱着我的那种奇妙感觉。这一切，都好难在得到了。。对不起，我知错了，我不该把你推开，不该拒绝你，甚至说我们不曾开始过。现在才懂得后悔，已太晚了。。只怪爱的太迟，爱来的不够及时。只希望，我能够再拥有一次机会，叫你一声宝贝。