I have no idea since when, I have learnt the way of leaning my head on the wall, just with the reason of it gives me the feeling that you are by my side. Silliness had taken over as the wish of staying by your side had drowned the entire me.

Sometimes, I smiled secretly just looking at you, heart beating fast inside, but there are also times that I feel like shedding a tear. I wish, things never turned out to be like this cos I have the feeling that it might be a happy ending story. I have taken that coward way to avoid you, but it lasts for just a slip of eyes, bringing the definition of can't live without you anymore. *Yeah, that's one of the silliness I'm facing, the truth that neither one can deny*

That encouragement of paying attention in class came from you, with the aim of doesn't want you to worry about me *even though I know you won't =.=, that just lead to another silliness*. It used to be fun to go to lectures as there are always someone that I can hold, but, that no longer remains in reality, only dreams, and memories.

Too much that I wanted to say, but unable to get the initiative or chance. Even if I said let it flow naturally, there's no one clearer than me of how much I wish to have that second chance again. And how nice if there is a chance to cuddle you tightly, even if it's just a cuddle, I swear I will never let go this time!

Oh yeah!!! 爱的太迟～爱需要及时～ Somehow that is the song that keep flashing in my mind. Reason? Because the lyrics suit my current feeling a lot. Sigh.. If I realized earlier, if I get to choose again, will I still choose back the same answer?

很难告诉自己不要再想了，可是我真的办不了，就连你在我面前时也默默地在想着。可惜，当我对你开始有感觉时，回忆已成了回忆。那一切真的不会再回来了吗？还记得你那粗糙的手，曾经突然紧紧地握着我，还记得你那好奇又温暖的拥抱，给了我很多的安全感，还记得当初你向我说过的一句话，甚至还记得当初你所叫过我的一声宝贝，我拒绝了。。后悔我所拒绝的一切已成为了事实，不会再回来了。
我好想念你抓着我的手，一起取暖的那段时刻，我也好想念你抱着我的那种奇妙感觉。这一切，都好难在得到了。。对不起，我知错了，我不该把你推开，不该拒绝你，甚至说我们不曾开始过。现在才懂得后悔，已太晚了。。只怪爱的太迟，爱来的不够及时。只希望，我能够再拥有一次机会，叫你一声宝贝。

Hmm.. Loneliness.. Sigh! I hate being alone! Waited for more than half an hour for the bus to my sweet home come without any companion. No earphone, no sms-es, no calls, no games to play, nor even Wi-Fi. I just wish to chat with you for that less than an hour time, so that I won't have to wait at the bus stop looking at the watch, bending my back forward and backward to prevent myself from becoming a Humpty Dumpty.. Don't you know? I missed you soooooo much during that lonely time! Kept waiting for you to reply my message, kept keeping my mind from being quiet!

There it is, my long time no see blog post. Have fun dudes and dudettes!

我一直以来都很少生气，原因是因为我真的很珍惜你，怕生气会影响到我们的感情。可是，偶尔我真的很想对你发脾气，不知酱是否会弄到感情更糟，有谁能告诉我吗？我也知道，有时候是应该骂一下架才会促进感情，但是。。。

Why do I love you so much?? Why do you just don't trust what I said? I love you,the one and only you forever.. I wish to know what you are thinking sometimes, I wish that we can be forever.. You want me to leave you alone,but I just cant do so because I love you a lot, I hope that I can by your side every moment when you are sad or angry or no mood.. Spend every of our fun and happy time together. 你知道吗？只要相信，就能到永远。宝贝兔子，别再生气了好吗^^？

Awesome! Three months of not posting anything! Anyway~~ Here's my first post of the year 2010! First off, wish every readers of this blog Happy Happy New Year, may your wish come true in this lovely year. Semester two is almost over, now just left that final exam! Ahh~ And guess what? Tomorrow is the first day of this headache exam yet I am still online here posting a blog post @.@.. Well, this is what I called release stress.

Next on! Ahh~ No more.. Blog finish. Next post, I think will be whenever I feel like posting one. XD Have fun guys!

Ahh decided to write a diary on my blog for once to relieve myself!

2nd September, the happiest day in my life. We finally got together, he replied me saying that he is willing to give it for a try. That whole night, I was very excited, even until the next day.

3rd September, days go on like usual, just that I am finally not passing my life alone.

4th September, finally he said that he has feelings towards me. Woohoo! Wish things will go on smoothly! But.. Don't know what happened to him, his mood suddenly dropped down the hill during night. Treat me as cold as glacier, when I asked what happened, he did not say anything except no or nothing. Haiz!

5th September, everything went well in the afternoon, again, problem strikes during the night. I wonder, does the moonlight tends to make someone moody? My bad mood strikes normally at night too, hmm...

Honey, I don't want you to be in bad mood, not even for half a second!